Wednesday, September 7, 2022

In My Dreams

Hello,

It's been years since I last saw you in my dreams, but a few nights ago you came to me in my sleep. I can only describe the place as a conglomerate of the places I have stayed in, from our ancestral house in the province to the various apartments and houses I stayed in while in college at Baguio.

I was with my family. Surprisingly, my grandmother, who passed away in 2018, was there alive and well. I keep seeing younger versions of my family members and even myself.

To my surprise, you showed up. What a shocker that was for me in my dream. It was like I had a panic attack seeing you there. You asked for a place to stay for the night. You did not explain your circumstances and the reason why you were there needing a place to stay. Why come to me of all people?

"Hey!"

"Hi!"

With that familiar smile you asked, "How long has it been?"

My reply, "It's been 21 years, Kat."

"That long huh? Don't worry, I'll be gone in the morning." you said. "I need a place to stay just for the night."

Weirdly enough I had a key to a room in the middle of the house. A room that has not been used in a long time. Only I had the key which looked like one of those old keys for treasure chests in those old movies. The room was filled with cobwebs and spiders. I had to clean the room with my youngest sister and my grandmother. Cobwebs and spiders everywhere. They scrambled away as I swept the cobwebs from the ceiling with a long broom. The room had windows, but clearly they haven't been opened in years. A lone light bulb lit the room, hanging from the middle of the ceiling. It was lit, but I do not recall ever flipping a switch to turn the light on.

 I couldn't sleep that night knowing you were in the other room. I was clearly disturbed. I asked my Mom to pray for me. 

"What's wrong?", she asked. 

Before I could answer, my wife was suddenly there looking as young as the day I met her. 

"He's uneasy because she [Kat] is getting married tomorrow.", my wife says.

In my head I was thinking, "What!!?? Kat is getting married tomorrow?!!"

Apparently the guy you were marrying was RJ, or was it JK?

I did my best to go to sleep. I needed rest because I was suppose to go to my office early the next morning.

I didn't get much sleep, but I managed to wake up and prepared for work. Before I could step in the bathroom, I saw you. The door to your room was wide open you were preparing to leave as well. Then I saw the man you were suppose to marry. He was there to pick you up. You looked so happy to see him. You didn't notice me. It was as if I was never there. For me it was like watching a movie. I can see you, but you're not aware of my presence.

I awoke from my dream. I'm back in the real world. I couldn't make sense of what just happened in my dream. It was strange. Images of the locked room kept flashing in my mind. and your words, "Don't worry, I'll be gone in the morning.", kept ringing in my head. It was 12:45 AM. It felt like I had slept for over 6 hours. Beside me are my wife and little girl fast asleep.

Getting back to sleep was no problem. 5 AM came like 5 minutes later. I kept wondering what that dream meant. Why after so many years, you were in my dream? And why did I act the way I did in the dream?

Now I'm wondering where you are. Are you still out there somewhere? Are you well? Are you happy?


Mike